Why, Oh Why

Someone answer me...why does a diabetic make homemade ice cream???? This has got to be the most dangerous thing ever!! Brent and I bought a machine last year...with my FULL intention of making the sugar free, fat free version...which I do, but only sometimes. The real stuff is just sooooo good! I limit my serving to a half a cup or so, and hopefully I don't go back for seconds. It's almost summer, and hard to resist.

We all know how I combat all the junk....swimming, cycling, running. The problem is I actually have to swim, cycle and run. With the fear that I won't be ready in August, comes the blowing off of workouts. Yeah, yeah, yeah...I know.....why does that happen you ask? It seems so counterintuitive doesn't' it? You would think the fear would make one work harder wouldn't you? Why doesn't this happen with me?? I just fall off the wagon more.
Someone....please....WHY?

Having said all of that...I look forward to a great ride with my friend Dana tomorrow morning. Weather permitting, it will be her first ride outside since her "incident" last year. The incident being a stroke. I'm really looking forward to it, and doing my anti-raindance all night! This should put things in perspective for me right?

I'm sure I will finish the Half IM in August. I just need to forget about finishing with a good time. My only need is to finish with a good blood sugar, a smile, Brent at the finish line, and hopefully not collapse!

No Cheating the Wind Tuesday

My triathlon bike is lighter then my road bike. For obvious reasons. The whole idea of aerobars is to become more aerodynamic right? Cheat the wind, as they say. But what I realized upon my first ride on the Felt a year ago, is that when in that aero position, if the wind is strong enough, you will fly all over the place. You MUST have some considerable core strength to help keep you in line on the road. Not to toot my own horn or anything, but my core is pretty solid...so much so I can't put an infusion set there because they pop right out. (Nice problem to have though!) Well, this core strength is only one aspect. If you really want to cheat the wind you must have the legs too. And mine weren't alive...again! Where, oh where have they gone?? Riding has been pitaful, and making me nervous about being ready for Aug 2.
But, as always, when the bg's are good, then the awfulness of a ride is somewhat forgotten.
Here it is:
11:00AM-102, 10gm, no bolus
12:11PM-167, start ride
12:48PM-105, Powergel
1:27PM-127, a few Sport Beans
2:15PM-63...oohhh I'm done now.

Could have fueled up and gone more, but was just frustrated and totally bonked out, so I hung it up!

A wise friend...ok, Tony....sent me a text recently:
"u r trying to hard. just forget about the h.r.(heart rate), cadence, etc and enjoy the ride. riding bikes is fun."
Sometimes I forget that. It really is fun! Trust me I will throw that back at him another time!

AHHHH...The Recovery Swim

Nothing like the power of time...it heals all. One day off the saddle and in the pool, and the backside feels fine!

But boy that swim didn't feel like effective training today. It probably was, or will be in the long run. The legs were like 2 bricks trying to stay afloat...the arms were Jello after about 30 min. I have found a love for swimming, but not feeling the love today. Blood sugars were good though. So something is going right. I woke up around 5:30 AM and tested at 73. Of course not horribly low, but enough to want to bring it up for a workout. This is where the brain spins. Do I eat without a bolus? I'm going to disconnect from my pump in 20 min, and not hook back up for over a hour.......oh the dilemma! Food + No Insulin=High BG and a bad swim. Well, I usually just follow by gut, and the gut says eat 10gm, and bolus .3units. Off I go for another trial and error morning. When will this ever be predictable?? It worked great...the gut was right this time. I ended at 121. Must remember this for another day!

If You've Run a Marathon, Watch This!

Sore Ego & Other Parts

Don't read this entry if you don't want to hear about the very real problem a cyclist has...saddle issues....in other words..."Oh my ass!"
I rode today. Yep...my backside feels it! Trying to log miles in the saddle is always hard when you have a real job, and are reduced to riding on the weekends, and the occasional day off. Lack of consistent riding equals a sore behind! And when your butt is sore you're slow...because..well...you're just uncomfortable. Which brings me to the sore ego. When people pass you and give you that polite nod of the head...yeah...that's another way of saying I'm faster then you and you'll never catch me....and by the way what are you doing on that bike...you don't deserve that!
I was able to draft a guy for about 5 min....until he caught on and left me hangin'!
It was windy and a bit chilly today, but no excuses for performance! It was just an off day for sure. But an off day of riding/running is better then not!
Here's how it looked:

I got up and ate the breakfast of champions...not Wheaties....my usual, an egg white omelette, one slice of toast, home made yogurt with blueberries and home made granola..and don't forget the coffee. I'm finding that riding later in the day after a full meal is better for the legs and endurance. Not to mention the temperature!
I headed to the park around 11 AM. After a quick stop to load up on some Powergel's, I arrived to find the parking lot full of cyclists. Very common to see on a Sunday. Even more common on a sunny Sunday! I ate a Zone bar on my way there because my sugar was a great 93, but wanted to raise that a bit for the ride. One last check of the bg at 11:30 and I was at 180. This is optimal for me at the beginning of a ride....AND I chose to eat a Zone bar for the protein content...less of a spike at the beginning and I thought it would hold my blood sugars longer.
12:11PM-165
12:48PM-93
Consumed a GU-27gm
1:31PM-112
Out for a short run
End at 2:06PM-96

Pretty perfect I'd say. If I were to have gone any longer I would have taken another GU.

So, as my ass recovers from yet another bumpy ride, I'll go for a long swim tomorrow.